Rockin’ Quote #34: Dracula, Children of the Night

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This quote is from the first movie version of Dracula, starring Bela Lugosi. It’s a classic and one of my favorite vampire movies. Dracula, Children of the Night. As anyone who knows me knows that I love all things vampire. It all started with a little movie called The Lost Boys. There is no Dracula but they were just as scary.

That started my whole obsession with vampires. I always knew who Dracula was. Dracula was everywhere during Halloween. I used to watch The Munsters. Sesame Street also had a hand in my introduction to vampires. The count was my favorite character. However, it wasn’t until years later when my mom introduced me to the 1930’s version – and the best version.

While studying literature in College I also read the book in my Gothic Lit class. I loved that class! So here is my ode to my favorite vampire of all time

 

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There are other great actors who portrayed my favorite vampire:

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Christopher Lee was the scariest Dracula! A superb actor!

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We can’t forget the 90’s version, starring Gary Oldman, Anthony Hopkins, Keanu Reeves, and Winona Ryder

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Even Buffy took on the famous vampire

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Of course Mel Brooks turned the most fearsome vampire to ever live into one of the funniest I’ve seen

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Then there is two of the sexiest Draculas, played by Luke Evans in the feature film, Dracula: The Untold Story

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The other sexy actor, Jonathan Rhys Meyers, played Dracula on a short lived TV drama titled, Dracula

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Ironically, he played another one of my favorite historical figures, King Henry VIII

I can’t write a post on Dracula without naming the real historical person who inspired the undead icon, Vlad Tepes, a.k.a., Vlad the Impaler. Honestly, he was a real person. Just look him up. Warning though, no undead version holds a candle to the evil of the real person!

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And last but not least, the fun loving Disney Dracula my kids love: Hotel Transylvania 

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Before Bela Lugosi though there was this guy:

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But for me, Bela Lugosi is my favorite Dracula. The movie may be old and the filming sucks compared to today’s films but the movie scared the hell out of people back then and that’s why I love it

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Which Dracula is your favorite?

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Rockin’ Quote #13: ‘Tis Near Halloween

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Updated Post from 2015

Rockin’ Quote #13: ‘Tis Near Halloween

halloweenquote2_rockinrandommom October is my favorite month of the year. Halloween is my favorite holiday. I love the aura of Autumn and of Halloween. I can’t explain it but it fills me with a weird fuzzy feeling in my stomach and chest. This time of year makes me feel more alive and more free than any other time.

I read once, a long time ago, that the seasons represent life. Spring represents birth. Summer represents youth. Autumn represents old age and/or dying. While Winter represents Death. The circle of life affecting nature in its finest and most raw form. So then why do I feel the most alive during the old age season? Maybe its because getting older doesn’t mean the end. It can sometimes mean a new beginning.

Halloween is the season of the witch, black cats, vampires (my personal favorite) and all the old school monsters. Some how these days, I find comfort in these “monsters.” With all of the bad that has been happening around the world lately, I think finding comfort and solace in a good ole fashioned “scary” story where the vampire is feared and the witch is green, (No offense to my mom, who is a Wiccan. Love you Mom!)

I also have a black cat and in no way believe they are bad luck. Just saying!

Anyway, I found this quote a while back and just love it! It has everything that draws me to Halloween in one short quote, save the dressing up part, but that’s just a given.  For ’tis near Halloween, when all the ghosts and goblins come out!

We get to dress up in our scariest…or sexiest costumes and cause some mischief in the world without any repercussions. Of course, the cops are out this night so you might want to not cause too much havoc now, hehehe!

Halloween is almost here ladies and gents! Get Ready to haunt, trick, and be scary!

Here are a few more of my old tags I made for Halloween:

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I can’t remember who the artist is for these two. It might be Joel Adams but I could be wrong.

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The artist of the lovely lady holding the skulls is Myka Jelina. She’s one of my favorite artists!

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I hope you all have a fantastic and hauntingly happy Halloween!

Thanks so much for Reading!

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A New Adventure is About to Begin on the Career Front

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This past week was a busy one. It was the first full week of school for the kids. Something else happened though. On the Career front that is. It’s pretty exciting. At least for me. This isn’t a paying job but an internship. However, the training is one that I’ve wanted for quite some time and Internships are always good for anyone looking to advance their career.

Let me explain a little of what I mean:

I did an internship during college with the local Rape Crisis Center. I went through a full semester of intense training before becoming a certified counselor/advocate for the center. It was one of the best experiences of my life. I didn’t just learn about the job and duties. I learned a lot about myself as well. I learned some very valuable skills, like Self-care, that I have use in my career and at home.

I worked there as a volunteer for almost two years. It was a very fulfilling job. Every time I counseled someone on the hotline or advocated for someone in the hospital, I felt… complete. I knew that I was answering to a higher calling and I was participating in something so much bigger than myself. That’s when I knew that helping people was the career path for me.

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But it didn’t last…

My internship ended because I had gotten a full time paying job that took up most of my time so I had to leave. I really enjoyed it there. I felt like I was finally giving back but all good things must come to an end I suppose. The job didn’t pan out. The stress of the demands of my old boss were too much and I wasn’t feeling like I was furthering my career in any way. It left me depressed and lost.

Three months later I started my blog in hopes of expressing my thoughts and finding my path. I love writing and I will continue to write and help people through my writing but I need something more. I’ve spent the last two years trying to figure out what that was. I don’t just want a job though. I want my career to mean something. I want to leave an impact, even if it’s only a small one.

So What is this Internship?

I can’t go into details about it because like the Rape Crisis Center, it is a confidential type of organization but I will be working with survivors of Domestic Violence. I will be working with children and adults. I’m not exactly sure what my duties will be but I’m very excited to be a part of this great organization that I have wanted to work with for several years.

This is a wonderful opportunity for me and I am so hoping that it will further my journey on my chosen career path. I really want to work with children, teens, and young adults who have survived great childhood trauma. This internship will allow me to develop new skills to work with children. It will also allow me to really figure out the best way to do that.

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There are many different ways to work with children. I just need to find my way and I can’t wait to find that out. Maybe it is going to ultimately be through writing. Maybe its through counseling. Or maybe it is both.

What will this mean for my blog?

Well first, I am not going anywhere. I adore my blog and I plan to keep writing as long as I have the words inside me to write them. I won’t be as active on the linkies and other groups that I am involved in because of the internship but I will still be here ready to interact with all of you lovely readers out there.

This blog has changed my life. The wonderful bloggers I have met and became friends have truly opened my world and I am so grateful for all of you. Writing has truly become my favorite outlet for expressing myself. I write for you but I also write for me. If I didn’t I’d probably go insane. It is one of the ways I keep my depression at bay too. So for you and for me, I am staying. Yay!

My training starts next week and I’m so excited for this new journey to begin! Wish me luck and I will certainly keep you posted.

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Rockin’ Quote #34: Know When to Walk Away

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It’s been awhile since I posted a quote of the week. This quote “know when to walk away…” is piggy backing off of my last post When a Romantic Relationship Affects Your Mental Health. I spoke a little bit about my suspicions of my ex-boyfriend possibly having a mental illness. I also spoke about how he always shut me down with every suggestion I would make about getting help.

Reading over it though, it occurred to me that I didn’t really talk about one huge reason I felt I had to walk away from him. I want to talk about this because if there is a reader out there who feels they need to stay with someone in order to help that person, please consider all of your options first.

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If you’re anything like me, you don’t like to give up on the ones you love. You may also be what I call, a fixer. If I have a problem or if someone I love has a problem, I like to find a solution to that problem. I can’t tell you why I’m like this. Maybe it’s because I am the oldest of four. Maybe it has to do with my childhood and how I grew up. Or maybe I was just born this way.

The point is this: Because I have a fixer type of personality and I hate giving up on people, I don’t always know when to walk away. But years of therapy and much, MUCH self-reflection have helped me to see that sometimes I really do need to walk away from a negative or toxic person. I have to for my own benefit.

Sometimes I struggle with this because I wonder if I’m being selfish. I was told constantly as a kid that I was selfish. You know how kids are. When I wouldn’t let my little brother play with me and my barbies because he was my annoying little brother. Or when I was called a selfish bitch as a teenager because of whatever I wrote in my diary that day.

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I talked in my last post about my depression while in that relationship. There were days when I wouldn’t even get out of bed. My kids noticed the very obvious change in me. I have struggled with depression my whole life. However, for the past two years I have been doing very well in spite of that.

I was very active and very involved with my children’s schools. I was writing every day, either in my blog or working on other projects. Then I met someone and while the honeymoon phase can be expected to take one away from the world a little bit, it went deeper than that.

Then there was me trying to help him. I wanted to fix his problems. Except he didn’t want to fix his problems. When I think about it, I know its because he isn’t ready. You really do have to be ready to take that journey into self-improvement and healing. NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. Remember that.

walkaway_rockinrandommomThe second part of my quote, “Be strong enough to stay away” is what tends to be a problem for so many people. To walk away is one thing but when you really care for someone, staying away is a different story. Because I wanted so much to help him, even after we broke up, I wanted to remain friends. 

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The problem with remaining friends with an unhealthy person though is that you get pulled back into their world. You get pulled back into their darkness. Before I knew it, I was right back where I was before. I knew then that in order for me to be healthy I had to walk away completely.

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I had to think about myself and my boys. There were also questions about what we had in common. We didn’t have a whole lot. Video games were the most prominent. He didn’t take interest in any of my interests yet kept “strongly recommending” his interests. Even gaming stopped being fun after a while because if he wasn’t constantly jokingly insulting my gaming, then he was criticizing the game itself and after awhile that just stopped being fun.

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This also applies to those who find themselves in abusive relationships. Most people stay out of fear but many stay because they believe they can “fix” their partner. Remember what I said earlier? They have to WANT to fix it. They have to want to change. It’s out of your hands. At the end of the day you have to be happy. Know when to walk away…Be strong enough to stay away.

I would love to know what you think about this topic. Leave me a note in the comments.

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When a Romantic Relationship Affects Your Mental Health

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Last year I met someone who I thought was a soul mate. While I often question the validity of soul mates, deep down I wish for one. That one person who just gets me. This person seemed to do just that. We had this really strong instant connection. The relationship showed a lot of promise.

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That was so refreshing. He actually took the time to get to know me. It’s so rare to find that these days. I found him to be a unique person with a unique mind and I adored our conversations. We could talk about anything and the conversations flowed as if we had always known each other.

We had a long distance relationship. This was against my rules of dating. We met online – Xbox – another rule broken. Still, though I wanted to give it a chance. I wanted to open myself up to the possibilities. A third rule I broke was to not date someone more than 5 years younger than me. He was in his twenties. He presented himself as a mature and deep, intelligent thinker.

relationship_rockinrandommomI don’t trust easily and it takes a lot for me to tell someone I love them. It happened fast and within a month we were exchanging I love you’s and talking long term. I watch Catfish on MTV so naturally I was cautious. We had Skyped and sent pictures and spoke on the phone. He was who he said he was.

BUT THERE WERE SEVERAL RED FLAGS.

When I commit to someone and really love someone, I tend to go above and beyond. I’m a very generous person and eventually realized my generosity was being taken advantage of. When I said something, his answer was always, “Well, I didn’t ask you.” When coupled with how he “didn’t ask” – that is manipulation.

He had a way though, of making me second guess my instincts. Because of my trust issues I told myself that it was my own crazy thoughts that were keeping me from fully trusting him. I look back on that now and I know better. ALWAYS TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS!
relationship_rockinrandommomHe would often ignore me for a week or two at a time then come back and tell me how much he missed me. When I get ignored, I get angry but I also get distant. I told him this yet he kept ignoring me anyway. This had nothing to do with family obligations or work. It was all about gaming. He often retreated to his own little bubble where no one else existed, save his gaming buddies. During these times, I found myself depressed and irritable. I allowed it to affect my well being and happiness. Not Cool!

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Even so, I continued to date him. I really believed in our connection. Despite all the signs I believed in him. I saw his potential. I also wanted to help him. You see, over the course of our 10 month relationship/friendship I saw strong signs of a possible mental illness.

relationship_rockinrandommomHe would lie or exaggerate certain truths about his life in order to gain my sympathy. I genuinely wanted to help him but often found myself more stressed out and withdrawn. I was really stressing and worrying over his well being and beating myself up when he consistently ignored my advice. He could talk the talk but couldn’t walk the walk.

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relationship_rockinrandommomThe last straw for me was when he “forgot” my birthday. Wait. What he said was he didn’t forget, just forgot to tell me. I called bullshit on that and realized, finally, that I needed to let him go. We weren’t in a relationship by then but we were still acting like a couple. It showed me how selfish he really was. Despite his constant words of “I love you” and “You’re the most important thing in my life”, his actions kept showing me the opposite.

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I finally came to the conclusion that what he really wanted was a savior. Someone to rescue him from his life and take care of him. He wanted a mother and a lover in one while at the same time someone to obsess over him. I’m just not down with that. For my own sanity I had to cut him from my life. Sometimes you just have to walk away. I have to put my happiness first. After, I realized just how much he had drained me emotionally.

I was really angry with him but more angry with myself. The truth is I felt duped. How can that be? I’m smarter than this? I really had to come to terms with the whole situation. I invested so much more into the relationship. I gave more than I got. I can’t say this relationship was a mistake because I learned something very valuable about myself. Now I can move forward. Never settle for less than you deserve.

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Have you had a similar experience in relationships? Let me know in the comments.

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