Rockin’ Quote #31: Know Your Worth

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So Happy New Year everyone! I’m back with a brand new quote that I am piggy backing off of my previous post about 2016, which you can read HERE Know your worth. I love this quote because this past year has been a real challenge for me. True, 2015 was an even bigger challenge, when I put things into perspective, but 2016 was supposed to be better. It wasn’t.

It challenged my mental health in quite a few ways but the biggest way was through job searches and several attempts at improving my resume. Just the other day I finally realized that I need to remove a job from my list of experiences due to the lack of positive references. This isn’t something I have wanted to do before. After all, experience is experience and every little bit helps, right? Well, maybe not. Especially since that particular job had such a negative impact on me. My self-confidence in the work force plummeted because of my experience there. As my mental health also suffered. This quote helps me to remember who I am and what I’m worth.

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This past year I have doubted myself all too often. I sent out lots of resumes and cover letters. Both of these need to be improved. In 2015, I went on a few interviews that made me realize I need to improve my interview skills. All of these things though, have made me seriously question what I have to offer the world. Anyone who has questioned this knows this is not a good place to be.

It set me back on my journey of healing because of course whenever I start to doubt myself, I find myself wondering if my family was right about me all along. That I’m not good enough. I know better than that but still.  Acknowledging my flaws comes second nature, maybe for most of us. We are very familiar with our faults. But we don’t often understand or even know what our strengths are. This causes us to downplay our own worth. Not just our worth in the work place but our worth in general. Then I tell myself this quote: Acknowledge your flaws but know your worth.

I am reminded of George Bailey in It’s a Wonderful Life. Remember him? His life mattered to so many people yet he didn’t view himself as very valuable. He struggled to make ends meet for his family, his co-workers, and his town and because of that his self-doubt got the best of him. He didn’t know his own worth.

I am making it a point to remind myself of my own worth. You should too. Always know your worth and know that you are so important to the people in your life.

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Why 2016 Sucked! And the Good that Came from it

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So some of you may have noticed that I have been MIA lately. I’d say I’ve been gone for quite some time. Even when I wrote a post, I wasn’t fully engaged with my blog or with all of you. There are a few reasons but the main one is that 2016 turned out to be a major disappointment for me. In other words, 2016 sucked ass!

I’m not into making new year’s resolutions but I did set some goals for myself throughout 2016, none of which panned out. I failed to meet any of them and when I fail at something, I tend to become my own worst enemy. When that happens, depression starts to seep in and take hold. Depression is something I have struggled with my whole life. Most days I win the battle. However, there have been some days where getting out of bed has proven to be my biggest obstacle.

2016_rockinrandommomFor example, one goal I set for myself this year was to finish one of my novels. I also planned to publish my first e-book by December. Neither happened. I have felt uninspired to write much. I think maybe it has to do with productivity or rather, the lack thereof. Not working and not having the proper transportation to work has taken it’s toll. Sending out resumes left and right and not receiving any responses or opportunities for job interviews has been an obstacle. With no inspiration and no job prospects in sight for 2016, feeling a sense of purpose was virtually non-existent and that has somewhat hindered my mental health.

I have also not worked out or gone for a hike in something like 6 months or so. You all know that I thrive and feel so much better about myself and about life when I am able to get outdoors and go for my hikes. Failure to do so this past year has made me realize how much I need it in my life.

Then to end the year with the complete freak show of our so-called presidential election… Well, I won’t even get into that. I’ve already written my take on that so consider this subject matter closed. I am not the only one who had it rough this year. I have spoken to several people who could not wait for 2016 to end.

2016_rockinrandommom 2016 hasn’t been all doom and gloom though. When I feel this down about my life I remind myself of the things I do have. I have my health. I have my wonderful boys who are doing so well that their happiness keeps me afloat and I tell myself that at least I’m doing something right. They remind me every day that life isn’t all about these secondary things. Life is so much more if we simply take the time to see it.

I also know that I must be doing something right somewhere because the universe has seen fit to add a new person to my life. Of the romantic sort. In September I met someone. He and I have been doing well but the best part is we are taking the time to really get to know each other. Only a few people know about him. My boys do not. I’m not one of those parents who introduces her kids to the first person they date right away. I am taking my sweet time with this one because I want to make sure I’m ready and my boys are ready. He understands this and it makes me appreciate him more.

2016_gratitude_rockinrandommomThis romance was completely unexpected too. I wasn’t looking for anything. Neither was he. We hit it off right away though, talking like we’ve known each other our whole lives. He’s funny and sweet. He’s romantic but in a fun way. He’s not over the top, which I really like. He’s so understanding too. He understands that my ex is a part of my life and that I love my kids more than anything. Best of all, he’s genuine. He’s honest and straight forward with me without being mean or disrespectful.

Then there is my best friend. She and I have gotten each other through a lot of tough times this past year. There were a lot of late night texts and phone calls that witnessed many bitch sessions and shed tears. I am so glad she is in my life.

Maybe the beginning of this post was a little misleading but as I reflect on 2016, I realize just how blessed I am and I am happy. The ex-husband has become a good friend. Adam and Conner are growing and thriving every day. My best friend and I are closer than we’ve ever been and I have a truly amazing man who only adds smiles and laughter to my days.

2016 sucked but let’s think positive! May 2017 be our Year!!

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Rockin’ Post #30: Eat Your Soul

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I made this quote back in September but then things got really crazy and I kept forgetting about it. Haha! Yep! That’s me. Between the start of school and everything else that was on my plate I just plain forgot. So I guess this quote is perfect. Don’t let the world eat your soul. I’ll explain in a minute.

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I had this as a mantra for myself back during my therapy days when my head was all sorts of screwed up and my demons were wreaking havoc on my life. Since then, I have met so many people who deal with some form of depression or other mental illness who are on a battlefield with the succubus that is there to take their souls. for many out there on this battlefield of mental anguish, it is every single day. Each new battle brings new problems. They don’t get a break to breath or take in the sunshine. It is constant for them. To them I say, don’t let it eat your soul. If despair takes over and depression wins, your soul will be lost.

While I am talking on a mostly metaphorical level about mythological creatures and what have you, this is a very real thing for those suffering from depression and other mental illness. However, this also applies to those who are just going through hard times. Hard times that seem to go on and on and on…much like the energizer bunny.

The long and short of it is, sometimes life just sucks! Sometimes when it rains it pours and there seems to be nothing we can do about it. But if we keep moving forward and keeping looking up, our souls will remain in tact. This is especially in these uncertain times we are living in. With the new President most are scared. We are uncertain of our future but we must keep moving forward. So, don’t let the world eat your soul.

What do you think?

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Protesting the President

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I’m not protesting the president. I have no interest in doing any such thing. Except for maybe on my blog. That’s a form of protest right? I will talk a little bit about the protesting that has been going on but that is also not the reason for this post.

Instead, what I’m going to talk about is a local high school – my son’s high school to be exact – organizing a walk out today at lunch time and getting an email about it from the principal the night before. I’m also going to talk about how I am against this idea and am actually disappointed in the principal for encouraging this course of action by the local high school students. And no, my son was not a part of it.

But let me back up a minute. I’m all for our children speaking their minds and letting all of us adults know how disappointed they are in our decision to vote in such an ass as Donald Trump. I’m all for our children expressing their opinions on any matter, especially those that directly affect them, which we all know this will. Just because our children can’t legally vote yet, doesn’t mean they shouldn’t be heard. Our children are far more informed about our government and the corruption within it than my generation ever was at that age so kudos to them for speaking up and demanding to be heard.

My problem isn’t with the high school students standing up in protest. My problem is the method used and the misguided encouragement given by the school to allow a walkout. Here’s why:

Walkouts Do Absolutely Nothing

So a group of students at one high school, in one small town, in one state stage a walkout. Is it newsworthy? Hardly. Maybe it’s news worthy here in the local sector but is this message going to get all the way to the white house? Nope. So, what does this actually accomplish accept that the school has given some false sense of pride to children. This was purely to make them feel good.

The Point Of A Protest Is…

To get the attention of the people or organization you are protesting against. What protesting is not, however, is starting riots in the streets and burning down buildings just to try to make a statement. Yeah, I heard the news about all the protests going on right now. I heard about all of the injured people in hospitals and businesses having to close their doors because they were looted or their building was set on fire. Not cool people. Not cool.

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I can’t help but think of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Now there was a man who knew how to protest. He knew what his goal was. Dr. King lead peaceful protests down Main Street (I’m guessing on the street) and got the attention of the entire world. The man didn’t lead riots. He didn’t loot local businesses. And he certainly didn’t hurt anyone in the process. He got hurt but he refused to get violent with anyone.

What If The Protest Was With The High School?

In case no one has noticed, our children are sorely undervalued in this country so protesting our government won’t do much. Now if these same students had a grievance against the school, or the school district you bet your sweet ass that walk out would have been squashed the moment the word “walkout” was uttered.

My high school class of 1995 staged a walkout once. I believe it was over our principal taking away senior hook day or something. I can’t really remember but that walkout was crushed pronto and anyone participating found themselves in deep shit. Needless to say, it went bye-bye in the blink of an eye. While walkouts are a from of peaceful protest it’s the context of the walkout that I disagree with.

protesting_rockinrandommomMaybe I’m wrong though. Maybe I’m overthinking it a little – or under-thinking it? But when I get a note from my younger son’s 4th grade teacher about the fact that I wouldn’t make Conner do his homework last week, it makes me wonder some things. The reason for the disappearance of the homework Nazi last week was because they had two days off from school. I adamantly believe that homework itself is a huge waste of everyone’s time but two or more days off from school should qualify for a homework break. Oh but we must follow the rules right?

We must follow the rules and never disagree with those rules. Unless we are talking about our new President? Does anyone else see the holes in this logic? Yes, rules are there to follow but we are also allowed to disagree and even protest against them if need be.

What do you think? I’d love to hear your comments.

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Rockin’ Quote 31: American Spirit

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The American spirit has been challenged so many times over the centuries but for the past, I don’t know, 15 to 20 years our spirit has slowly been chipped away. This election season I’d say our American spirit has all but lost itself. We can get it back though. We are not so far down the rabbit hole that we can’t find our way out of the dark pit that our government has put us in. Thanks to Jeremy over at Thirsty Daddy for the quote below.

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Our young people are being taught to be ashamed of their country instead of being shown all of the great things this country was and can be again. We are failing to pass that pride down to the next generation. We are also not teaching our kids what it means to be American. The American Spirit was once a force to be reckoned with. We weren’t afraid to stand up and fight for what we believe in. We weren’t afraid of the hard work it takes to thrive and make our dreams come true. And we weren’t afraid to stand up to those in charge if we disagreed with them.

When we first came to this country, we were ruled by England. Then we started to disagree with them and we decided to go our separate way. We faced our fears and fought one of the greatest countries in the world with one of the greatest armies in the world because we believed in our cause. Were we afraid? Of course we were. Did we fight anyway? Damn right we did!

How many Native Americans fought and lost their lives because of what they believed in? How many African Americans risked life and limb to fight for their freedom during the Civil War.

World War II, we stood up to a tyrannical and seriously misguided leader, fighting side by side with our allies because we believed in our freedom.

Women’s suffrage, Civil rights, Vietnam: We stood up to those who would hold us down and we didn’t give up.

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But our kids don’t know this anymore. Instead, all they see is our fear and our anger. They aren’t seeing our courage and our strength. In order to move forward and make change, we must stand up and say, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Isn’t it time we showed our children what it really means to be brave? I don’t mean to fight in a senseless war that no one will win and everyone will lose. I mean by simply standing up for what is right.

What do you think?

Thanks so much for reading!

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